I'm on the verge of going insane with nothing to do everyday. Does anyone know how to 'unattach' yourself from someone? How to avoid thinking of them until you feel like popping sleeping pills just so time will pass faster?

Anyway, I'm probably going to school soon. My parents picked out one for me but I cant remember then name. And, I was surfing the web and was looking for ways online that could help me not be empty. There was a way with God and a way without God. I chose the first one first.

I started to wonder when my life started to make a turn for the worse. When my life started to phase everyone close to me out, and made it revolve around only one person. And I know its not worth it..

I had choices. And I chose all the wrong ones. I started to phase out people I knew deep inside I couldnt do without. Sure, I'm happy sometimes but most of the time I just start wallowing in loneliness and unhappiness.

A few months ago I realised that God's disappearance in my life was becoming heavier, and I just relied on Chris to fill that void. Which was impossible. And now I'm paying for the wrong choices I've made.

I can't be living my life for Chris. I cant make him the sole purpose of my existence.

I'm sick of being alone.


Weida, Yongsing, Daphne, Isabelle, Xiufeng, Jonathan, Sherlyn, I wish I could see them again.